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Written by: Nicole Zefanya
Produced by: NIKI & Jacob Ray

[Verse 1]
Saturday sunset, we’re lying on my bed with five hours to go
Fingers entwined and so were our minds crying, “I don’t want you to go”
You wiped away tears but not fears under the still and clear indigo
You said, “Baby don’t cry, we’ll be fine, you’re the one thing I swear I can’t outgrow”

[Verse 2]
My mother said the younger me was a ‘Pretending’ prodigy well nothing, then, much has changed
Cause while you’re wolfing down liquor, my soul it gets sicker, but I’m stickin’ to the screenplay, gotta say I’m okay,
but answer this babe:
How is it now that somehow you’re a stranger?
You were mine just yesterday
I pray the block in my airway dissipates and instead deters your airplane’s way

[Pre-Chorus 1]
But heaven denied
Destiny decried
Something beautiful died too soon

[Chorus]
But I’m letting go
I’m giving up the ghost
But don’t get me wrong,
I’ll always love you, that’s why I wrote you this very last song
I guess this is where we say goodbye
I know I’ll be alright
Someday I’ll be fine,
but just not tonight

[Verse 3]
Plunging into all kinds of diversions like blush wine and sonorous soirées
But even with gin and surgin’ adrenaline, I see you’re all that can intoxicate
Oceans and engines, you’re skilled at infringing on great love affairs
Cause now my heart’s home, all I’ve known, is long gone and ten thousand miles away

[Pre-Chorus 2]
And I’m not okay

[Chorus]
But I’m letting go
I’m giving up the ghost
But don’t get me wrong
I’ll always love you, that’s why I wrote you this very last song
I guess this is where we say goodbye
I know I’ll be alright
But just not –

[Bridge]
Tonight was the first time I stared into seas of beguiling sepia two years ago
And the first time I learned real world superpowers lived in three words, they revitalized my fraying bones, oh
Now what do you do when your pillar crumbled down, you’ve lost all solid ground, both dreams and demons drowned, and this void’s all you’ve found and doubts light it aglow?
I have so many questions
But I’m pouring them into the ocean and I’m starting up my engine

[Chorus]
And I’m letting go
I’m giving up your ghost
It’s come to a close
I marked the end with this last song I wrote
I’m letting go
This is the last falsetto
I’ll ever sing to you my great, lost love

DIRECTED BY: Isaac Ravishankara
REPRESENTATIVE: Doug Klinger @ Reprobates
EXECUTIVE PRODUCER: Daniel Yaro
EXECUTIVE PRODUCER: Elizabeth Doonan
PRODUCTION COMPANIES: North of Now
PRODUCTION COUNTRY: United States
PRODUCTION COMPANIES: Division7
PRODUCTION COUNTRY: United States
NIKI: Nicole Zefanya
BEN: Peter Adrian Sudarso
RACEHL: Rachel Gunawan
NATASHA: Natasha Simadibrata
ABBY: Abby Latip
JOE: Mike Concheso
WET KID’S MOM: Jenni Kephart
WET KID: Idris Soleiman
PRODUCER: Naby Dakhli
POST PRODUCER: Dylan D. Underhill
PRODUCTION COORDINATOR: Damiana Acuna
1ST AD: Lexi Kirsch
2ND AD: Alex Spear
KEY SET PA: Anthony O’Brien
DP: Zoe Simone-Yi
1ST CAMERA ASSISTANT: Meghan Pham
1ST CAMERA ASSISTANT: Dave Eaves
STEADICAM: James Troost
STEADICAM: Jose Espinosa
SOUND MIXER: Ruben Brionnes
DIT / VTR: Fahad Salam
DIT / VTR: Chris Colenor
PRODUCTION DESIGNER: Helen Morales
ART DIRECTOR: Nicholas Kerr
ON SET DRESSER: Alex Santo Spirito
SET DRESSER: Conrad Sundquist-Olmos
SET DRESSER: Drew Hall
CHOREOGRAPHERS: JA Collective
GAFFER: Thomas Sigurdsson
BBE: Christopher Williams
SET LIGHTING TECH: Auston Mahan
SET LIGHTING TECH: Zach Emerick
SET LIGHTING TECH: Scott Smith
KEY GRIP: Brendan Riel
BB GRIP: Logan Alesso
GRIP: Kevin Ramirez
GRIP: Alex Laudeman
GRIP: Connor Colby
GRIP: Marc Dewey
HAIR & MAKEUP ARTIST: Lili Eve Kaytmaz
HAIR & MAKEUP ARTIST: Kristin Andersson
ASSISTANT HARI & MAKEUP: Bex Cook
HAIR STYLIST: Deshauna
MAKEUP ARTIST “NIKI”: Marla Vasquez
HAIR STYLIST “NIKI”: Athena Alberto
NAILS “NIKI”: Michelle Tran
WARDROBE: Alisha Silverstein
WARDROBE ASST.: Isabel Rodriguez
WARDROBE ASST.: Molly Danielle Wilcox
WARDROBE “NIKI”: Katie Qian
WARDROBE ASST.: Athena Mesina
WARDROBE ASST.: Kiona Vickroy
WARDROBE ASST.: Francesca M
PA: Teresa Plascencia
PA: Sean Cavalerie
PA: Omri Soha
PA: Chris Ponce
PA: Carrie Carusone
CAMERA PA: Luis Barajas
TRUCK PA: Mike McCarthy
ON SET PHOTOGRAPHER: Gabriel Chiu
PHOTOGRAPHER ASST.: Liv
BTS PHOTOGRAPHER: Michael Rodgers
EDITOR: Henry Kaplan
ASST. EDITOR: Sutton York
VISUAL FX: Zak Stoltz
SOUND DESIGN / MIX: Ben Tomastik, Kris Huayta
COLOR: Ethos Studio
HEAD OF PROD: Natasha Sattler
COLOR PRODUCER: Sam Cesan
COLORIST: Dante Pasquinelli
SET MEDIC: Alex Regnaga
COVID COMPLIANCE: Marquis Willis
STUDIO TEACHER: Stella Pacific
COVID TESTING: Testing Better
CATERING: Rise & Shine

#NIKI #OceansandEngines #Nicole

26 Comments

  1. am in a really healthy relationship rn, however this song brings me back to my early uni years with my past LDR relationship that went sour , probably 7 years ago . just like niki's short movie too all the story were the same. wow, thanks niki u made me cry 🥲

  2. Saturday sunset
    We're lying on my bed with five hours to go
    Fingers entwined and so were our minds
    Cryin', "I don't want you to go"
    You wiped away your tears
    But not fears under the still and clear indigo
    You said, "Baby, don't cry, we'll be fine
    You're the one thing I swear I can't outgrow"
    My mother said the younger me was a pretending prodigy
    Well, nothing then, much has changed
    'Cause while you're wolfin' down liquor
    My soul, it gets sicker
    But I'm stickin' to the screenplay
    Gotta say I'm okay, but answer this, babe
    How is it now that somehow you're a strangеr?
    You were mine just yеsterday
    I pray the block in my airway dissipates
    And instead deters your airplane's way
    But heaven denied
    Destiny decried
    Something beautiful died
    Too soon
    But I'm letting go
    I'm givin' up the ghost
    But don't get me wrong
    I'll always love you, that's why
    I wrote you this very last song
    I guess this is where we say goodbye
    I know I'll be alright
    Someday I'll be fine
    But just not tonight (ooh)
    Plungin' into all kinds of diversions
    Like blush wine and sonorous soirées
    But even with gin and surgin' adrenaline
    I see you're all that can intoxicate
    Oceans and engines
    You're skilled at infringin' on great love affairs
    'Cause now my heart's home
    All I've known is long gone and ten thousand miles away
    And I'm not okay
    But I'm letting go
    I'm giving up the ghost
    But don't get me wrong
    I'll always love you, that's why
    I wrote you this very last song
    I guess this is where we say goodbye
    I know I'll be alright
    But just not
    Tonight was the first time I stared into seas
    Of beguiling sepia two years ago
    And the first time I learned real world superpowers lived in three words
    They revitalize my fraying bones, oh
    Now what do you do when your pillar crumbled down
    You've lost all solid ground
    Both dreams and demons drowned
    And this void's all you've found
    And doubts light it aglow?
    I have so many questions
    But I'm pouring them into the ocean
    And I'm starting up my engine
    And I'm letting go
    I'm givin' up your ghost
    It's come to a close
    I marked the end with this last song I wrote
    I'm letting go
    This is the last falsetto
    I'll ever sing to you
    My great lost love

  3. thank you for the great song, niki. love you to the moon n back niki. you always did your best. I'm so proud of you and I love you so muchhhhh. sukses selalu ya, niki. 💗

  4. I used to sing along this song without knowing the lyric and just think about "well this in a good song". But after reading every lyrics, now I can't even sing it without crying

  5. I am 21 years old. nbsb. not hartue broken. had never fall in love so deep to someone but teary eyed while listening to this song and felt like my lover for 3 yrs suddenly dont see me as part of his future. dang. krazzy

  6. Was a fan of niki since she was still Nicole zefanya on youtube and was just starting. Covering songs and uploading originals. Just playing on her guitar in her bedroom. Oceans and engines will always have a special place in my heart 🥺💗 thank you for this beautiful version 💔🥲

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