NIKI – Blue Moon (Official Music Video)

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Seriously this song and the album Nicole feel exactly like the heartbreak I went through?? If this song came out just a few years ago I would be inconsolable and sobbing on the floor for days. Just gonna overshare and rant because I don't know how to explain to my friends that I'm pretty much over this but every time I'm not committed to someone I inevitably think of him…

All the details are similar from things falling apart slowly to ending it because he didn't feel we could grow together and have a future. We were in love for 4 years, I'm a December baby and he was born in July, and it all started when we were too young to know what a relationship should look like.

Even after falling for other people and trying to date again, some part of me will always believe he was the one but I've grown to be so much of a better person that I wonder if all this was meant to be.

We were 13 when we started dating, which was just way too young to have strong self-identities and social skills to keep up an actually healthy relationship. We were both people who didn't believe romance was integral to life, nor suitable for our age then. I've always been strongly self-aware and introspective so I knew it wasn't something that would last but I just loved him more than I thought was possible.

It feels ridiculous even to me to say that he was my soulmate, and my lack of experience back then and current youth probably play a part. But he was such a strong, bright, and good presence in my life. Just the thought of him made me want to both smile and tear up from how much I wanted to cherish every moment. I wanted our existence to be intertwined and I loved him purely for being there in my life at all. He was like family (and I have quite a close-knit family) and I wanted to cry, laugh, fight, and sit in silence with him.

In the month following the last time we saw each other, I felt nauseous and had little appetite. I was so desperate to keep any sliver of his presence. For a year after breaking up, I cried regularly, almost every day and then every week (and I'm really not a big crier). My desperation led to me trying to be friends again, failing, and even asking if he wanted to be FWB 😬😬. I was a disaster back then so I don't think we'll ever be that close again.

Of course, now I've grown a little more as a person and understand it's not the end of the world. Just because I felt the emotion strongly doesn't mean it was a good relationship. Relationships are so much more than just feelings, they are a combination of affection, care, reciprocal effort, and circumstances and we just didn't have the last two.

There probably will be another soulmate out there in this lifetime. I feel like, in the end, it was good that we broke up. Some bitterness and regret refuse to leave though and I'm sure it'll fade as I continue to grow. Even then, I wouldn't be surprised if I found him somewhere decades down the line and we'll probably look back on that chaotic experience. He'll probably say "Who knew?"

Anything with moon theme, I'm onto it ♋

I really like the song

I pushed like button as fast as read Niki! ❤

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BISH 😭😭😭😭

Keren!!

this song is a little too good……

Niki I love you

when i listen to this song, i feel a bunch of emotions like i cant help but think about the good times i had with him and really miss those moments, i feel sorry for the mistakes i made and wish i could go back and fix them. and there's a sadness that hits me when i think about what's gone, even with the sadness, there's a small part of me that hopes we could get back together (at least find some closure) all these emotions make the song hit really hard n feel like a kind of emotional release for me

I absolutely can’t wait to listen to the album 😭

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Lagunya indah

ilove u NIKI!