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t/w: suicide, self-harm
I’ve wanted to make this video for a LONG time.
TL;DR:
So, I’ve been a K-Pop fan since 2010. TVXQ are my ultimate group and Yunho is my ultimate bias. In mid 2013 I had a really rough time. I was in my 2nd year at college and I felt like I was getting nowhere. Constantly being put down. Bullying. Relationship problems. Anxiety. Depression. Teachers not helping me, but making me feel worse. A driving instructor mocking me. Gender confusion. Money issues. No goals in life. Everything got too much. I wanted to end it all. I hurt myself. I wanted to just not be here anymore. I thought about it. I tried it. But then, one day, I decided to get back into TVXQ. I found strength in listening to their albums, watching music videos, watching every live performance ever, and watching them on talk shows.Their 10th anniversary comeback in January 2014 is what gave me so much hope. My love for TVXQ, and especially Yunho, was re-born. I admired Yunho with all of my heart, and still do. He gave me the strength to realise that I wanted to live my life, I wanted to live so that one day I could see TVXQ live, I could meet Yunho and Changmin. One day.
I wrote Yunho a letter and a birthday card when he was doing his military service. Just knowing that Yunho read every letter and card he was sent meant so much to me. He said that the letters/cards gave him so much strength. That really, really touched me. I was so happy knowing that the man who gave me hope and strength, had been given strength from me in return.
I really do hope to see TVXQ live one day soon. That is my biggest dream.
Thank you for reading/watching.
I am always here if anyone would like to talk. I’m here for you all.
P.S. I am doing much better. I still suffer from anxiety and depression but I am tackling it better than before. I am much happier. I have a loving boyfriend, an amazing network of friends, a wonderful family, a great part-time job, my own t-shirt business, I graduated university, I run my own kpop dance class group, and I passed my driving test. I also figured out that I am non-binary. Life is good! I appreciate everything I have. Being positive is key.
My Social Media:
Instagram – http://instagram.com/lspcosplay
Twitter – http://twitter.com/lsp_tvxq
8 Comments
Thank you for sharing it..im so happy for u,and for yunho to have a fan like u, i hope ur life will be full of love more and more and i really really hope i will be able to see them live^_______^
My dear, I'm so proud of you for getting this out there. I can totally relate to this and as always if you ever need me I'm always here. I love you with all of my heart, you are one of the most beautiful people I have ever had the pleasure of calling my friend ❤️
Yunho is special to me. He always will be.
I'm also TVXQ fan post lawsuit. I admire their skills, even I couldn't choose who is my bias. Then I watch Tohoshinki A nation Purple Line live performance and I fell in love to Yunho when seeing him did rapping and dancing. I knew Junsu voice is like an angel and his dancing very good too, I knew Jaejoong voice is a so good and his visual.. no one can't deny, I knew Yoochun charisma and his husky voice makes girls screaming, and I knew how handsome & tall Changmin is… And the last I knew that Yunho isn't young and a little fat like ahjushi (lasttime bfore he got diet after discharge). But I can't move on and still my bias is Yunho. There are many younger teenages and skillful singers, but yes I can't move on. Why? Bcoz I love him not only his handsomeness, tall, singing, & dancing. But I also love his attitude. By watching varshows or reading story behind his presence on the stage, and his past history make me get passion too.
Anyway, so you're cassie, rite? I found many news/ stories about him when I follow others'cassies twitter acc. Those are important too for me bcoz I can't understand Korea language, lol.
Just now i just read about him stand for domestic abuse. Other people around ignore don't want get invlove but no for him he choose to help them. He is also my inspiration even though my UB is Chang.
I really hope your happiness. Me too I have anexiety but people around don't know bc i always put smile *yunho says he respect a lot people smiling in hard time*. Let's fight together in this rough world! Hope you have better world 😁
Yunho is the best!
Im so happy that you met Yunho that I came back here. I'm sure he didn't dissapoint. Please make a vídeo telling us 😊
Wow!! Finally you met him on May 2018, met Yunho…. CONGRATS dear!! I'm happy and I knew that's you who met him in Scotland airport 😍😍😍😍😍😊